picking up the pace

Well, that love interest of mine is certainly out of the picture! After Korean-American Student's Association (KASA) Ski Trip, I called him to catch up and see what's going on. He's been having some struggles with personal things and school things, but in other news, he told me that he had actually been dating me while in a relationship with another girl! What an asshole! I told him to tell her because I cannot stand for dishonesty in any relationship--be it romantic or platonic friendship. The thing is that despite him lying to me, I was willing to forgive him... His girlfriend broke up with him, and I should have ending things as well, but my mother said to me something that opposed what everyone else told me: "If it is what fate has for you, then fate will bring you two together, just don't let it be easy for him." Okay, so this may be the most stereotypical love thing that can be said, but seriously, I was surprised, because I told my mom everything, and yet she reacted in a way I didn't expect her to. I thought she'd tell me not to talk to him ever again, and just to forget him because he isn't worth my time... but here she is, telling me to be willing to give him another chance...

My mom is very cute~

Sadly, I drunk texted him recently and I spilled the beans about how I was willing to forgive him and I would rather take my chances now than lose him, but he said to me, "I just don't want a relationship right now"... and it's understandable considering the issues he's going through. I cried that night because I want to support him--I don't want him to carry that burden alone, but he wants to. Oh well~

I've made close friends with a few instrumentalists, and this Freshman Soprano who sits next to me in choir. We've had some good hang outs, lunches, drunk nights, and movie nights! I feel stupid because I kissed one of the guys when I was intoxicated LOL

Last night was SHIBUYA LOVERS NIGHT hosted by SHOCK BOX and KIMMELA GALS and I went alone, hoping someone I knew was going to be there and luckily there was! lol Skylar was there, and it was really an enjoyable night to make new friends and bond with acquaintances and old friends.

I went outside for a bit of air, and lo and behold, my best friends(?) were outside. They had gone karaoke/NRB and were all dressed up ready to head inside to the event, but said they ran out of money... They didn't expect me to be there... and then I turned away for a second, and they left.
Not even a wave with the hello, not a hug, or an excited "what's up." My friendship with them really died, and I still don't even know why. They won't even tell me.

It's alright, there are more opportunities at this age to make more friends, memories, and enjoy my youth! Like this event!

I didn't have a camera with a flash, so I'm only in tagged photos. Dania and Skylar took pictures--very nice pictures--but I don't know where to source them other than FaceBook so... I'll wait on that :)